5.4.11

Life | Sorrow

Psynopsis Vintage Chanel Skirt DIY Bag Marc Aurel Silk Blouse
It was supposed to be a happy outing, but instead I found myself crying in the airport lounge because the day before I left for Berlin we found Fudge dead in the field which was absolutely heart-breaking to all of us. No more evening walks together, no more photo shoots where I try to woman-handle him into my pictures (oh, he was so hopeless at modeling), no more laughing about his tongue sticking out, no more impatient waiting for Sarah to go to bed, so he can cuddle up… His brother went into a no-moving-no-eating depression and we are all in mourning. I always felt Phillip Pullman's daemon idea in 'His Dark Materials' was a good description of how we can feel towards our pets. And you know what happens when you get separated from your daemon... I might need a bit more recovering time. Sorry.

Psynopsis Sabine and Fudge
Psynopsis Fudge


skirt: chanel, bag: diy, blouse: marc aurel

39 comments:

Aesthetic Alterations said...

My heart goes out to you. My little cat is like my daemon, and I don't know what I'd do without her. Take care.

Cloud of Secrets said...

Oh, I'm so sorry, Sabine -- especially heartsick for you if you felt the daemon-bond.

My family's neurotic cats drive me nuts, especially the older one Poe (as in Edgar Allen). I don't know what I'll do when Poe passes, though -- I'm not prepared to handle it emotionally, or to explain it to the tots. I don't think my husband is, either. Poe's nearing 14 years. I'm hoping for one of those 19, 20, 21 year cats I hear about.

Will you be able to bury Fudge near, as you're on a pretty large property? My sister sewed and embroidered her cat Julius Caesar a velvet shroud, and he remains buried under the apple tree in our back yard.

Take the time you need, dear lady.

sacramento said...

I am so sorry about Fudget. Perphaphs was his time to go.
We are never ready to be without people or pets close to our hearts.
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Dancing Branflake said...

Oh no! I am so terribly sorry. Losing a pet is like losing a part of your self- the loving, nurturing, and soft part of your self. The best part.

Jazzabelle said...

oh, i'm so sorry! my nan has lost many cats in the past and it's just so heartbreaking. i don't know what to say, but my heart goes out to you.

the last shot of fudge is beautiful, he looks like a great model to me. xxx

the nyanzi report said...

That last shot is beautiful. A great tribute shot to him.

ediot said...

how did it happen? im so so sad for your loss. i have a cat who is peeing blood this week and im always so scared when she gets sick so i go to the vet ever so often. i went with her to the vet yesterday, and now i think i have to go again- because the medication is not working.
i would do anything for her- she means everything to me. When a pet is lost it is like loosing a family member, that might not be the case if one's not a true animal lover, but if you are- then it breaks your heart.
my stomach hurts just thinking about your loss, im so sad for you and want to give you a hug.
take care lovely
xx

Harriet said...

Oh gosh, I am so so sorry. It's so horrible to lose a pet, honestly like losing a family member. I hope you are ok.

Tanvi said...

I'm so sorry! I can imagine how terrible it must be ... ! Bug Hug! :)

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Fashion, Art and other fancies said...

I'm terribly sorry to hear this sad news, Sabine, take as much time as is required. I don't have a pet animal, but I know what it feels like to lose a human being, am sure the pain is similar. Hugs. XXXX

Veshoevius said...

So sorry Sabine - how very very sad. I still haven't gotten over our family dog dying several years ago now and it still makes me cry to think of her. Pets are like family and understandably we grieve for them as we would family. She was a fine looking cat from your tender photos. Big hug
x

Maddy said...

I'm so sorry to hear it, Sabine! When my pup passed away suddenly a few years ago, I was a wreck. I cried my eyes out. I hope you feel better soon. (((HUGS)))

Rachel (RooPaprika) said...

So sorry. The loss of a pet is heart breaking. Sending you love

Fourth Daughter said...

What a terrible shock, was Fudge old? I hope he died of natural causes and in peace. He looks so much like my cat, as you have commented before I think. I can totally understand how you feel, I was a sobbing mess when Suki got sick a few months ago, I don't know how I will function when she's actually gone.

Miki's scrapbook said...

Oh, I'm so sorry, Sabine! :( I totally understand the feeling. When my 19 year old cat Sophie passed, it was incredibly sad. Almost as sad as when my mother passed away. And when I brought my new cat, Dimitri, to the States, I was so scared of him suffering during the flights that is was a torture.

Anyway, hope you and your other cat recover soon ;). I know you guys can make it!

Tight hugs!

Miki.

INTRO TO MY LIFE said...

aww im so sorry to hear that, i hope all is well soon

Kellie W. said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry. :( I know it won't help much, but I'm sending you a big mental hug. <3

Upasna said...

so sorry to hear this! Know exactly how it feels to lose a cat!

SabinePsynopsis said...

Thank you so much for your comments. I think a fox or a big dog must have gotten him (he was not in the habit of budging, silly thing) and we've buried him in the garden. Tiffany's words really got me... Our pets do represent the soft, nurturing part in us. The part that gives unconditional love, and I guess it doesn't matter if it's to a human or an animal.

polka dot said...

Oh, Sabine... I only just saw this, through your tweet. Oh my heart breaks for you. I was just petting our cat a few minutes ago: we love him so much. I'm reading these beautiful comments and I don't know what to add to this, I just feel so sad and sorry for your loss.

What you said says it all: our pets representing the soft, nurturing part in us. The part that gives unconditional love. It is the purest form of spirituality.

I see that our mutual friend Ediot also is a cat lover. I didn't realise that. When our last cat died we were broken hearted - my husband was surprised at how much he was grieving. I feel that the cat we have now is the same cat - that he is reincarnated. The timing is exactly the same. He is the same sunny old soul.

That is my wish for you: that Fudge will come back, that in a few weeks (the gestation period for cats) you will find a kitten and know it is Fudge. He might be a different colour - ours is - but you'll know it's him.

I agree: that last photo is so beautiful. Getting a bit teary so I'll stop now. xxx

Kazuko said...

oh i'm so sorry, Sabine. the first photo shows the bond between you two. he's been one proud and exceptionally beautiful cat, and i totally understand what it means to lose a pet. i'm so sorry.

WeShop said...

So sorry to hear this sad news Sabine. The whole family will really feel the loss. Thinking of you. xx

yiqin; said...

that dress looks fab on you :)

MyStyle said...

Hi my dear-I'm so sorry for your loss, these are such lovely pictures of Fudge and its good you have so many fond memories of him xxx

janettaylor said...

Oh no... I am sorry for your loss! Fudge looks so adorable on these photos...so so sorry, my dear!

vint junky said...

Aw sabine. I'm so so sorry to hear about fudge. We get so attached to our little furry friends, don't we? I've previously slugged a bottle of wine for shock and wrote poems for their maudlin little funerals. It doesn't make it any easier, the fact that they're not human. They are our best friends and a member of the family. Poor you.
xxx

Nnenna said...

I'm so terribly sorry to hear about this Sabine. My condolences and I'm thinking of you. xx

Len♥reNeverM♥re said...

Oh my dear Sabine, so sorry for the loss of a family member~ RIP* lovely Fudge

hugs

drollgirl said...

oh girl. i am so very very sorry. it hurts so much to lose the fur friends. they love so much, they give so much, and they mean so much. i am so sorry.

hugs to you and i hope you and yours will be ok.

Haute World said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry for your loss. This definitely must have put a damper on your trip. Such a beautiful feline as well. I hope you and your family are ok. I read your above comment and wished he could have at least died of old age, but hopefully he went peacefully. xx

Zarna said...

i'm so sorry for your loss. such a beautiful cat, i hope you're all coping okay :(

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PinkBow said...

ahh, so sorry to hear this xxx

Pearl Westwood said...

Oh no, I am so sorry to hear that. Our pets are just like our family, its so awful when they are gone xx

Heather said...

I'm sorry Sabine :(

your shirt looks beautiful though..

T. said...

Aw, I'm sorry! He was a beautiful cat!

Fashionistable said...

Oh I am so, so sorry to hear about the beautiful Fudge. My last dog died 3 years ago still miss him a lot. I really know what you mean about the Philip Pullman demon thing, that really strikes a cord. Xxxx

Cindy Whitehead said...

I am so very sorry Sabine. They are not animals but memebers of our family. My heart goes out to you and yours. xo

THE ALTERNATIVE WIFE said...

Awh Sabine, I'm so sorry to hear about Fudge, sweetie! I know how hard a loss that is :( Kisses and hugs! xoxo